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I can't really put into words what occurred yesterday, or all the things I realized after being blind for so long.

All I know, is I'm taking a huge leap here, out of obedience.
I'm putting an end to things that are starting to damage me.
I'm phasing out people who prefer to spin on their hamster wheels than to excel.

What I can't get over is:
If we're all Christians, shouldn't we be treating each other like brothers and sisters in Christ?
If we're all at a Bible study, shouldn't there be some sort of Christian behavior? Or try to pretend?

I'm sick coming week after week to a place that's not serving it's purpose. It's supposed to be a day where like-minded, godly teens fellowship and grow closer to Christ. So far, it's turning out to be a montage of 'whatever goes' and worldly conversations, seedy interaction and blatant shunning of people in the group.
I GET that you should be able to come to a place to be accepted--no matter where you are in your walk with God.
This being said, there should at least be evidence of a continuing effort to become more like Christ.  So far, we've all been moving backward. Last night was an acceleration of backwards-actions.
I cannot continue to be ostracized. I cannot continue to observe the shunning of others. I cannot continue to listen about parties, sex, drugs, movies, music, and drinking--during a BIBLE study.

I'm really going to miss some people. Mostly the ones I've known for longer than these 4 years of Bible study. I've just come to a point where I literally cannot move forward when I'm around people who only wish to act less than lukewarm.
It's not my job; it never was my job. Only God can change people, and how I wish he would.