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What an eye-opening night. I feel like I've 'refreshed' the page of my life.

I love days where it just feels like a push-and-pull struggle; lots of confusion, blurry life before your eyes, and so many factors pulling you in the right direction, and leading up to something you've been waiting to hear for months.

It's hard when your generation is moving at such a fast speed, that it's hard to clue adults in on what's going on around you when they can't even listen to 2 seconds of it without popping a gasket.

It's hard to convince people that you're not like the world; and it's an even harder thing to not live like the world.

Heartache will follow--whether you like it or not. And not to sound existential, but there comes a time when the 'go-with-the-flow-kidhood' screeches to an halt, and life turns into a big, scary carnival ride.

Heartache doesn't always have to happen with something large: even the smallest details can be earth-shattering. The issue of childhood friends falling away from the Lord is becoming the biggest issue of my life, 2011.

It's times like these when I piece the puzzle of the present with the parts of my past.

I'm looking forward to the future. To see my friends grow up, to pray for my friends, and to heal heartaches with the peace that passes all understanding.