school is stupid

I hate everything so much
I hate this paper I have to write on 'my musical identity'  WHAT THE CRAP IS THAT ABOUT AND WHY IS IT FOUR PAGES. Musical identity? What, that I identify with sounds? What do they want me to say? "Music is my identity. I love music more than anything in the world. It completes me. It's my passion. I have Toms with musical notes on them."
NOPE. Can't write it because it isn't true. Music is not my identity.  I've never been known as 'the girl  who plays piano.'

I just want to practice the piano and I can't because I have to study for a quiz later.
I thought music school would be about that--MUSIC. It's not! This is such a joke! Why did I ever want to go here? It's a nightmare! Nothing is normal. My only known connection to music is crumbling, I'm becoming bitter and tormented. We're too busy running around checking the boxes to learn anything of value! I hate this so much! I can't imagine suffering for 5 years! I feel like a stranger in my own field. Have I been living under a bubble my whole life? Is THIS what the world has done to music? It's not even music! It's a mutilation.