Musings

Just thoughts that I think about often:

1)  I feel myself splitting in all sorts of directions.  I'm almost moving too fast for myself, but at the same time not moving fast enough.  I'm learning more in the past three months than I have in the past thirteen months.  I can quickly see how my goals in music are attainable.  But I just don't know if I can accomplish them all--or which ones should I go for first.
 Like hiking an enormous mountain, I can't help but stand at the bottom and wonder when I'm going to get to the top, and what it will look like from up there.

2) Our church's re-design.  I've been through one already, but that was more like phase one back in 2003.  This one is much larger and more involved.  I'm on board simply because to be against it would be selfish and whiny.  But I can't help but grieve a little for two things:  they are taking out our pews once they redesign the worship center to make room for more seats. And that's exactly how it will be; replaced by individual seats.  And they might take out the prayer garden.  It's been there since 1986.  I cannot imagine it gone.  I'm just starting to understand that there is no "perfect" church out there.  You have to see the good in your church and focus on that.   Strong, Biblical teaching, traditional and contemporary services, leaders and elders who are very discerning, people with a heart for missions, and generous giving. 
I'm at church about 4 times a week, the people I see the most are there, the majority of my best friends and mentors are there, I'm encouraged at church, I'm able to encourage others, I am able to serve.  Because WE are the church after all.  It's just a building and not as important to me as the souls inside.  So I just have to keep focusing on that.