I just scrolled through instagram like I usually do. Only this time I realised how many friends I don't have right now. I have not hung out with my 'group' since the last day of school. We are all in separate directions. Nobody is doing the same thing so we are all separated from each other. Some are at community college, ACU, schooling at home, at Covenant, doing Abeka...etc.
It's not like they're having fun without me. We ALL inhabit lonely, segregated circles and never see each other.
I only hang out with Kenzie once a month, if I do hang out with anyone. Jesse lives at our house and I only see him and Olivia on weekends. Jack stops by now and then. But he is working two jobs. I eat by myself at school. I come home to my parents. I go to piano lessons and see Mr. Bardin. I do choir at SBC with the old people/adults and Julia who is 16.
When you see it in writing, it really looks depressing. But I wouldn't say I'm depressed. I have no time to be depressed. I've already had a breakdown so there's really nothing left but to move on and study for midterms.
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