this walking with Jesus stuff..is hard.
There's so many unknowns.
"How will we know if that's the answer?"
"Why can't I find out?"
"What if I embark, only to realize it was all wrong--was that your Will?"
It's then when I realize the object of my focus is faulty.
Do I want the answer, or do I want God's Will?
Sometimes I find the hardest times are when everything is going well.
All it takes is blessing upon blessing to heap over you in order to expose the ugliness. To see the vices of blame, comparison, guilt, impatience, and laziness seeping out of the cracks. Getting wrenched from your comfort zone, being blindsided by feelings of unworthiness, and hounded by the fear of failure. In the midst of so much grace and favor, I can feel myself fighting, thrashing and bellowing, "NO!"
It's a peculiar reaction. Illogical--yet, human.
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